Queen of Dozing-Off-Just-About-Anywhere

It finally started to rain yesterday. Gone is the sunshine. The cold wet Portland I've always known is back. And it looks like it's going to stay this way for at least the next few days. Just timely since I'm going to be stuck in the hotel anyway.




I have been real bad.

Sleeping too much, that is. Sleeping too much usually isn't quite a bad thing, but it's a different story when you are supposed to be up and awake and doing some important stuff - like working on your presentation slides.

For the past two nights, I have been so exhausted (from whatever little work I've started to do since I've returned to Portland) that I would lie on my bed after a hot shower, snuggle under the blankets, put my laptop on my laps (where else should laptops sit? haha) and then think I would get some work done... comfortably.

But of course it's the Queen of Dozing-Off-Just-About-Anywhere.

It's but a 'feel-good' act. Barely one key touched, I fell asleep under the comfortable sheets almost immediately. Twice.

Of course, knowing myself, I made some 'back-up' plans, in case I 'dozed off'. I set the alarm to buzz at 5 in the morning. It made me feel a little less guilty.


So, I was up at 5 this morning. Doesn't really seem that early (back at home, I'd be dead first than awake at 5 in the morning) because there was already light in the sky. Felt pretty much like 7 in the morning back home. Groggy I was, and I had to drag myself to the bathroom.

But instead of working on my slides, I got dressed and hopped onto the rail to city center. Decided I would feel better if I got myself a cup of latte and logged onto the free wi-fi. There's always time later to start work. Though I only have 24 hours left.

Good thing I'm getting into the groove of my preparation. I've gotten myself some new 'material' that I can use. Hopefully, I won't take too long to finish up.

How long more before I learn to get my work done earlier?


Realized I received a message on my cell when I flipped it open this morning. I was waiting anxiously to view the sender's name, when I realized it was a congratulatory message from a colleague: "Announcement out. Congrats on mm role..." Firstly, I hate it that announcements are made about you when you're not around nor aware of it. Second, I'm not quite excited about the 'new mm role'. Third, no one (read: someone in particular) has not even spoken to me about my new job. In fact, I've never really told him I wanted the job. Fourth, I hate assumptions made about me. I would like to say, "Thank you, but I don't want it."

But then, maybe change is good for me right now. Any change.

Well, maybe only some kinds of change.