How?

"You are so nice. You're nicer than I thought you were."

No, I am not.


I think I know what my problem is.

My one biggest problem.

I am too fucking nice, without realizing what detrimental effect it has on me. Me, myself.

I am always thinking for others, in others' shoes, from others' point of view. But never from mine, in mine, for myself.

I make decisions for myself because I don't want others to be hurt.


When I stop something, it's not because I don't want to do something wrong.

It's because "I don't want you to do something wrong".


Is this wrong?

Is this all just so wrong?

Is it time I start doing something for myself? Like thinking for myself? Like for my own good?

If so... then how?

How?