Hello 2005

So... as you can see, I'm not quite a good blogger yet. It's exactly two months since I signed up for my first blogging site, and my postings are still almost empty.

If I wanna be a writer of some sorts, then I figure I better start 'practising' more here.

It's almost end-Jan, but it still shouldn't be too late to bid farewell to 2004. 2004 sucked for the most part, for me at least. I got busier at work, but work was also becoming increasingly boring. Folks envy my job, but it was becoming routine for me. My relationship with my boss became more tensed, which is a shame because we used to be such a good team together. Got more stress at work, which made me hate work even more. The love life was unfortunately tumultuous and so bloody emotion-draining and I almost lost it. (Is this what happens after a long time of togetherness?) I suspected I got mild clinical depression (though of course no one believed me) - I googled on the subject and was convinced I had all the symptoms. The most telling sign was my drastic weight loss. And since no one would believe I was depressed, I just said I was too stressed at work. Some friends attributed it to my late-night online gamings. So I grew from skinny to scrawny. Most clothes don't fit anymore and I lost my butt. Babies cry when I carry them cos I don't think I offer any cushioning at all. The boyfriend says my bones hurt him when we hug. Not nice.

So. Hello 2005. I'm so looking forward to having a much better time with you. I have cleared up my thoughts a fair bit in the past couple of months, and I have newfound energy to pick my life up. I have tens of thousands of dreams, but there are only a handful I can realistically fulfill. But my whole life, I realize I've not quite done anything to really pursue them. So this is going to change. My job adds no value to my personal life, I realize. It pays my bills, yes, but that's not how I want to live my life. I'm not that old, but I'm not young either. At my age, you come to a point where you suddenly feel you cannot afford to procrastinate any longer and let every single minute waste away. I am going to chase after my dreams.

So, here are my immediate to-do list for 2005:

1 - Quit my job, and get out of the corporate rat-hole.

2 - Figure out what I wanna do, if I really quit my job.

3 - Buy some new pants because all my pants and skirts are now hanging off my butt and look like they're gonna fall off any time. Eew.

4 - Go on a trip somewhere... anywhere.

5 - Buy my Powerbook which I've been drooling over for a long time.

6 - Buy a digital SLR.

Ok none of these accomplished in the first month of the year, but it'll pick up. I know.

Wish me luck. I need lots of that. Oh, and courage too.